I realized today when trying to put my almost 9 month old breastfeed baby down for bed that without even thinking about it we have been cosleeping. She was a week old and I was reading books on sleep and how to get her to sleep. I never accounted for the fact that all children are different and that there is always an exception to the rule. The book I read had weight requirements for each sleeping milestone and my child has been under weigh….meaning that plan did not work for us and to this day she is not a big eater so the thought of putting her to bed full and she will sleep through the night is over.
Here we are..she will be 9 months in a few days. I always start her in the crib but most night she ends up in our bed. I would like to fault having a bed big enough but now I actually have to start looking at all of this as a blessing. Today I considered one thought…if this is my only child and my only opportunity to have a baby then perhaps I wouldn’t mind snuggling with an infant at night.
Am I wrong for wanting my child to be close to me?? I find in the moment that she is asleep and laying with us I can actualize the blessing in a child. So innocent, so peaceful and more than anything a definite life changer. And with that said i very much appreciate the person I have become over the last 9 months. Motherhood definitely changes you and personally it helped me to see the simple blessings and joys in life.