So I have not written in a while or taken the time to jot down thoughts due to on-boarding a new client at work and potty training. CRAZY right. Two major events happening at once.
I decided I needed to vent out my major concern with corporate america and the mom. I didn’t notice how bad things were until Baby #2 was on the way! (super excited) I announced it to the head of my department and the response was more like “oh its fine its fine, we will figure it out.” Stunned!
So many questions go thru my mind at this point. Are women being penalized for starting a family? Should you be shady towards someone because of their choices. I have waited my entire life to have children and it appears that my job frowns upon that very thing. Rather than being supportive they wanted to know right away when I was coming back from leave, how long would I take off etc. It did not inspire confidence at all. Instead I am left wondering why should I work for a company like this and why aren’t expanding families considered HUGE blessings. I also am running around working like crazy because I feel like I need to be PERFECT at everything and that my company is doing me a favor by ‘”letting” me go out on leave. It’s quite insane. I find myself working longer days, nights and even on the weekends just to prove that I am still committed and going hard.
It feels like I am being penalized because I am pregnant. I am almost sure that no one else works this hard nor has to go thru so many hoops just to prove themselves. But then I also noticed that when men announce their wife is pregnant they get promoted and their leave time is celebrated. Strange very very Strange.
So…now that I got this out. I am done with the foolishness! No more killing myself for a company. I will do anything for my family and quite frankly WHO WOULDN’T!!
I hope that this is an isolated situation and that lots of women don’t find this to be true too.