Cosleeping By Accident

I realized today when trying to put my almost 9 month old breastfeed baby down for bed that without even thinking about it we have been cosleeping.   She was a week old and I was reading books on sleep and how to get her to sleep.  I never accounted for the fact that all children are different and that there is always an exception to the rule.  The book I read had weight requirements for each sleeping milestone and my child has been under weigh….meaning that plan did not work for us and to this day she is not a big eater so the thought of putting her to bed full and she will sleep through the night is over.

Here we are..she will be 9 months in a few days.   I always start her in the crib but most night she ends up in our bed.  I would like to fault having a bed big enough but now I actually have to start looking at all of this as a blessing.   Today I considered one thought…if this is my only child and my only opportunity to have a baby then perhaps I wouldn’t mind snuggling with an infant at night.

Am I wrong for wanting my child to be close to me??  I find in the moment that she is asleep and laying with us I can actualize the blessing in a child.  So innocent, so peaceful and more than anything a definite life changer.  And with that said i very much appreciate the person I have become over the last 9 months.  Motherhood definitely changes you and personally it helped me to see the simple blessings and joys in life.