The clash between Corporate America and Motherhood

So I have not written in a while or taken the time to jot down thoughts due to on-boarding a new client at work and potty training.  CRAZY right.  Two major events happening at once.

I decided I needed to vent out my major concern with corporate america and the mom.  I didn’t notice how bad things were until Baby #2 was on the way! (super excited)  I announced it to the head of my department and the response was more like “oh its fine its fine, we will figure it out.”  Stunned!

So many questions go thru my mind at this point.  Are women being penalized for starting a family? Should you be shady towards someone because of their choices.  I have waited my entire life to have children and it appears that my job frowns upon that very thing.  Rather than being supportive they wanted to know right away when I was coming back from leave, how long would I take off etc.  It did not inspire confidence at all.  Instead I am left wondering why should I work for a company like this and why aren’t expanding families considered HUGE blessings.  I also am running around working like crazy because I feel like I need to be PERFECT at everything and that my company is doing me a favor by ‘”letting” me go out on leave.  It’s quitepaid_maternity_leave insane.  I find myself working longer days, nights and even on the weekends just to prove that I am still committed and going hard.

It feels like I am being penalized because I am pregnant.  I am almost sure that no one else works this hard nor has to go thru so many hoops just to prove themselves.  But then I also noticed that when men announce their wife is pregnant they get promoted and their leave time is celebrated.  Strange very very Strange.

So…now that I got this out.  I am done with the foolishness! No more killing myself for a company.  I will do anything for my family and quite frankly WHO WOULDN’T!!

I hope that this is an isolated situation and that lots of women don’t find this to be true too.

 

The Pool and the Slide

I spent all winter waiting for summer because once my daughter started walking I knew that summer was going to be great and filled with fun and games.  I am big big big on PLAY and I think its especially important for children to be able to run around and play outside.  So I found all these pins on Pinterest that had tons of activities for toddlers outside.

My overall FAVORITE has been the Slide and Inflatable Pool.  I even added ball pit balls to the playpen.  My goal for winter is use the slide in the pool but fill it with the balls instead of water.  SOOO much fun!!

I have had the slide all of three weeks and its a HIT!!She loves going outside and trying it over and over to go up and down the slide!

Such a great feeling and I the weather has been great for play in NY!  I found everything on amazon and it shipped in 2 days!!! Slide and Baby Pool is GREAT!! (sidenote:  I continue to go to the toy stores in the area to find this stuff but Amazon ends up winning because they always have the selection.  I was able to get the balls and the slide in one place rather than have to go from store to store!! Its a no brainer!!

Nights like these…

So here is a day in the life of a police officers wife…

An indictment comes down or DOESN’T and now they hold the police officers in the event that people start protesting.

So of course they start protesting and now they are stuck at work…

As a new mom and new wife the other aspect of this life… is the life of a cop’s wife.  And it is very different.  They think they are going in for day and have to stay..they protect and serve their city when everyone is rallying against them.

And while I may not always agree with the practices of others and how the force is run generally, it is still a job for my love.

Soon I will have to find the right words for my child and be able to explain to her about the life of her father and his role in society.   It can be a hard pill to swallow.

And you just want them to come home at night and be a husband and a father…

Every day that they leave you …you just have to hope that they return….

Always carry batteries

Today I traveled for the first time and left the baby with grandma.   It was a simple day trip.   I did them all the time before she was born for work.

But today.

I got up almost 3 hours before I needed to get her ready and then myself.   She was fine by my biggest task was where was I going to pump.   I was only taking a 2 hour 20 min train.  

Well I made it thru the ride down and my client visit and back to the train station and thought I was going to explode if I touched my chest!   Where were the outlets… Where was a bathroom that had a place for private??  Didn’t this exist?   I got desperate and went to the ticket line and begged the clerk for a private place.   A private place didn’t exist…

The story ended with me buying batteries… Putting them in the pump and then crouching down in a stall to pump.  Annoying but the job was done.  
I got back on the train and then went to pick up my daughter.  I thought to myself… Gosh life changes so fast!!

She barely ate… Which was awesome because I didn’t have to pump again ad just fed her.

Breastfeeding by its nature attaches you and requires you to get relief from one another.   I got the rocky feeling relieved and she got her nourishment.

Sheesh… Long day!