The first time you leave overnight….

So I left my little for the first time.  The MR.  and I decided to take a 3 day trip and leave her with grandma.  My mom watches whenever I travel for work so I was very comfortable with that.

What I was not prepared for was my own emotions.  Flight lands…I am in paradise but I had to check in for bedtime to make sure she was good.  I called and she was already asleep.  My mom tells the story of how she went up to my picture and looked for me everywhere in the house.

I hung the phone up and BALLED my eyes out for about 15 minutes.  I had to go redo my makeup because I cried so hard.  Who knew it would be so difficult??  I just felt like something was missing and that i was terrible for leaving her.  I know I need this much needed trip but I was not prepared for the rollercoaster that it would put me in.

Night number two was better for her and for me.  Gosh I know wonder what things will be like when she goes to school..college…moves out??  Who knew motherhood would because such a source of personal reflection and growth.

I did notice something different about myself…I am much more confident.  Something about motherhood has created a much more driven person within.  I am starting a online shop…I help a friend build her business and now I just became a Beachbody Coach so that I can help other people AND myself get into shape.  Before motherhood…all I did was work!! Somehow now I can fit all of this other stuff in AND play with a baby all day.

I am happy..I am proud and more than anything I know how blessed I am. There will be more times that I have to leave her but I know that both of us benefit and grow as the days go on.

15 months…too soon to start potty training

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So I noticed that my daughter is now going into the bathroom and standing by the toliet randomly. I was scratching my head like hmmm what is she doing. Is it possible that she is ready to start potty training?? Can that really be the case??

Seems a bit early but I am one of those people who pays attention to signed so I went ahead and purchased two different pottys. One for home and one for travel!!

Always gotta be prepared!!

The First Kids Party

Last weekend we attended our first kids party with baby in tow.  My husband and I were truly surprised!! I was running around doing the limbo, pinata and playing games.  And he was with the fellas having drinks and watching the children play.

Then someone came over to me and said.  First kids party huh?  I was like how can you tell!!?? He said don’t worry it normally turns into an adults party afterwards.

I decided in that moment that even though is is only 9 months and can’t do much yet with other kids, I enjoyed exposing her to the fun involved with parties, games and playing along!  I found myself smiling within.  Without a huge network of moms close by it was nice to just sit back, talk to other moms and watch the kids play!

The downside of course was that after her first kids party…followed her first virus!! The gift that keeps giving because now I have it as well!

I spent the first couple of days beating myself up and then finally realized that it happened and that there is nothing else to do!  Now turn way to protect a child.  I washed her hands..dressed her warmly, etc.

Another lesson in motherhood.  Being more flexible and learning to enjoy all of the moments.  I have spent the last week nursing her back to health…but I suppose the beauty of it all is learning that I CAN.

With the Holidays

The holidays are here and I couldn’t be more happy! As a new mom I have already started gathering holiday outfits and decorations!! There is something magical about the holidays and what it represents.  Baby’s first Christmas is such a beautiful blessing and milestone.

How can I contain my excitement??  I am going to somehow stop myself from buying tons of red and silver and gold!

Parenting with Pinterest

One of the immediate realizations that every mother must experience is that children do not come with a manual.  How does one know how many times to feed them, bathe them or even take them outside.  What is good?  What is bad?  Too much or too little?

I found tons and tons of answers online and more recently Pinterest.

Here are some PINS that I found super helpful.

Early Childhood Development

How much Sleep does your child need?

Foods for babies

Babies First Year: Senses and Motor Skills

You can learn alot from social media!  Let me know if you have some Pins that you would love to share!

Maternal Separation Anxiety

My Nanny called in sick on the first day??  Is that a sign…of COURSE IT IS!!

Because I am in Sales, I view the job as a nanny like the child is their client.  And to me first impressions are everything.

I am also learning how one of the greatest challenges in motherhood is who will watch your child when you cannot be there and how you get over the hurdle of allowing someone else to care for your child.  I know some people have NO challenges with this but I suppose that as a first time mom it can be scary!

I diagnosed myself with Maternal Separation Anxiety.  I am generally an anxiety filled person so this is just the absolute WORST!!  i look forward to when she can talk so that i can feel more comfortable with her going places without me!!

Everyone says things get better and I am holding them to it!

How Feminism Begat Intensive Mothering

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Feminism and motherhood have long been cast as feuding sisters, one always attempting to undermine the other. In this calculation, women had to choose between the independence, education and self-expression of the feminist path and the nurture, sacrifice and child-centricity of the family path. The more feminist a woman is, the less appetite, it has been suggested, she will have for mothering.

Ironically, however, the opposite is true.

Women’s rising social and economic power has not squelched their desire to be mothers. Quite the opposite: it has enabled women to mother with ferocity. They research; they seek out best practices; they join a group, form a committee and agitate for their version of feeding/disciplining/sleeping. If you don’t believe me, just visit a breast-feeding support group with former litigators, marketing executives and investment bankers. Reluctant sucklers don’t stand a chance.

(MORE: Confessions of an Accidental Attachment Parent)

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