The clash between Corporate America and Motherhood

So I have not written in a while or taken the time to jot down thoughts due to on-boarding a new client at work and potty training.  CRAZY right.  Two major events happening at once.

I decided I needed to vent out my major concern with corporate america and the mom.  I didn’t notice how bad things were until Baby #2 was on the way! (super excited)  I announced it to the head of my department and the response was more like “oh its fine its fine, we will figure it out.”  Stunned!

So many questions go thru my mind at this point.  Are women being penalized for starting a family? Should you be shady towards someone because of their choices.  I have waited my entire life to have children and it appears that my job frowns upon that very thing.  Rather than being supportive they wanted to know right away when I was coming back from leave, how long would I take off etc.  It did not inspire confidence at all.  Instead I am left wondering why should I work for a company like this and why aren’t expanding families considered HUGE blessings.  I also am running around working like crazy because I feel like I need to be PERFECT at everything and that my company is doing me a favor by ‘”letting” me go out on leave.  It’s quitepaid_maternity_leave insane.  I find myself working longer days, nights and even on the weekends just to prove that I am still committed and going hard.

It feels like I am being penalized because I am pregnant.  I am almost sure that no one else works this hard nor has to go thru so many hoops just to prove themselves.  But then I also noticed that when men announce their wife is pregnant they get promoted and their leave time is celebrated.  Strange very very Strange.

So…now that I got this out.  I am done with the foolishness! No more killing myself for a company.  I will do anything for my family and quite frankly WHO WOULDN’T!!

I hope that this is an isolated situation and that lots of women don’t find this to be true too.

 

15 months…too soon to start potty training

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So I noticed that my daughter is now going into the bathroom and standing by the toliet randomly. I was scratching my head like hmmm what is she doing. Is it possible that she is ready to start potty training?? Can that really be the case??

Seems a bit early but I am one of those people who pays attention to signed so I went ahead and purchased two different pottys. One for home and one for travel!!

Always gotta be prepared!!

The Pool and the Slide

I spent all winter waiting for summer because once my daughter started walking I knew that summer was going to be great and filled with fun and games.  I am big big big on PLAY and I think its especially important for children to be able to run around and play outside.  So I found all these pins on Pinterest that had tons of activities for toddlers outside.

My overall FAVORITE has been the Slide and Inflatable Pool.  I even added ball pit balls to the playpen.  My goal for winter is use the slide in the pool but fill it with the balls instead of water.  SOOO much fun!!

I have had the slide all of three weeks and its a HIT!!She loves going outside and trying it over and over to go up and down the slide!

Such a great feeling and I the weather has been great for play in NY!  I found everything on amazon and it shipped in 2 days!!! Slide and Baby Pool is GREAT!! (sidenote:  I continue to go to the toy stores in the area to find this stuff but Amazon ends up winning because they always have the selection.  I was able to get the balls and the slide in one place rather than have to go from store to store!! Its a no brainer!!

The First Kids Party

Last weekend we attended our first kids party with baby in tow.  My husband and I were truly surprised!! I was running around doing the limbo, pinata and playing games.  And he was with the fellas having drinks and watching the children play.

Then someone came over to me and said.  First kids party huh?  I was like how can you tell!!?? He said don’t worry it normally turns into an adults party afterwards.

I decided in that moment that even though is is only 9 months and can’t do much yet with other kids, I enjoyed exposing her to the fun involved with parties, games and playing along!  I found myself smiling within.  Without a huge network of moms close by it was nice to just sit back, talk to other moms and watch the kids play!

The downside of course was that after her first kids party…followed her first virus!! The gift that keeps giving because now I have it as well!

I spent the first couple of days beating myself up and then finally realized that it happened and that there is nothing else to do!  Now turn way to protect a child.  I washed her hands..dressed her warmly, etc.

Another lesson in motherhood.  Being more flexible and learning to enjoy all of the moments.  I have spent the last week nursing her back to health…but I suppose the beauty of it all is learning that I CAN.

Cosleeping By Accident

I realized today when trying to put my almost 9 month old breastfeed baby down for bed that without even thinking about it we have been cosleeping.   She was a week old and I was reading books on sleep and how to get her to sleep.  I never accounted for the fact that all children are different and that there is always an exception to the rule.  The book I read had weight requirements for each sleeping milestone and my child has been under weigh….meaning that plan did not work for us and to this day she is not a big eater so the thought of putting her to bed full and she will sleep through the night is over.

Here we are..she will be 9 months in a few days.   I always start her in the crib but most night she ends up in our bed.  I would like to fault having a bed big enough but now I actually have to start looking at all of this as a blessing.   Today I considered one thought…if this is my only child and my only opportunity to have a baby then perhaps I wouldn’t mind snuggling with an infant at night.

Am I wrong for wanting my child to be close to me??  I find in the moment that she is asleep and laying with us I can actualize the blessing in a child.  So innocent, so peaceful and more than anything a definite life changer.  And with that said i very much appreciate the person I have become over the last 9 months.  Motherhood definitely changes you and personally it helped me to see the simple blessings and joys in life.

Words to Inspire: In a child’s eyes

“In a child’s eyes, a mother is a goddess. She can be glorious or terrible, benevolent or filled with wrath, but she commands love either way. I am convinced that this is the greatest power in the universe.”
N.K. Jemisin, The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms